Okay, this is getting ridiculous. It’s been so long since I’ve done anything remotely close to being healthy. I have continued to eat like the proverbial pig. My activity level is down to almost nothing. I have totally and completely stopped caring for myself. Do you want to talk about a total collapse? All you have to do is listen to my story. I’m providing the definition.
I have been lazy and unwilling to work at this. I’ve paid lip service to wanting to get healthy, but I haven’t actually done anything at all to get there. That’s a common theme on the few posts I’ve made here in 2012. How can I expect things to improve if don’t make the changes? Am I expecting to just snap my fingers and have everything be better?
Yes, I have a lot of questions and no answers this evening. No answers at all.
I do think that part of my problem is a scary lack of self-worth right now. I don’t feel like I deserve to be healthy. That is one scary thought to have. I don’t know for certain what got me to this point, but I definitely don’t like it.