Current weight: 321
Difference from last entry: -2.5
Difference from 2007 starting weight (335.5): -14.5
Ah, what a difference a week can make. Due mainly due to the wackiness of my new job, I managed to trim the couple of pounds I put on the week before. It wasn’t easy, but it also wasn’t as hard as one might imagine, either. I lost using the age-old, time-proven method of eating less and being more active. I wouldn’t say that I exercised per se, but I’ve definitely been walking a whole lot more. Partly out of necessity – walking a floor up for meetings – and part planned. Activity is definitely helps out!
I had mentioned that a Weight Watchers at Work session is starting up. We had an information meeting this past Tuesday, and I signed up for the 17-week program. I think I mentioned how odd I found it that I could not actually say anything during the meeting, because I was afraid I would mist up. I am not sure why I was so emotional, but I think it is a combination of two emotions: Fear, that I won’t be able to lose again, and sadness at the fact that I have to lose all of this weight again. Choices I made years ago are still haunting me. I was down to 220 at one point. Now I’m far above the weight that made me want to trim down back in 1997.
But there are some promising signs, too. I am definitely fired-up to start in on the WW@w program. I know that I will lose weight again. I realize that I can’t stop along the way and think, ah, I don’t need to worry about this, I can do it on my own. I have found out that I cannot do this on my own. I need to stick to a program, I need to continue to get support. Whether this is a sign of maturity or simply coming to terms with my weaknesses, I’ll leave for my readers to decide.
I had forgotten some of the cool little tricks that Weight Watchers uses. For example, to get one’s activity level up, WW recommends parking your car in the furthest parking spot in a parking lot. This forces one to walk at least a little more. If one does this at work, then it causes one to walk a little more every day. And that’s the point! I am damned winded by the time I get to my desk, but that’s a good thing, I think. It’s a sign that I am forcing my body to use some energy.
I am encouraged and motivated. And I am ready to face what lies ahead.