Allaying fears

Weight: 325
Difference since last entry: -4

I’ve gotta tell you, I was absolutely terrified of what the scale would show when I got up on it Tuesday at the Y. I thought for sure that it was going to put me at 335, maybe 340 pounds. Since my last entry in March, I hadn’t made much of an effort at all to get healthy. I wasn’t exercising, and I wasn’t watching what I was eating. I thought it would be very bad.

Instead, it was a tolerable 325. Definitely not good, but not as bad as it could have been. And now that I am going to make some type of effort to keep things under control, it should start getting better. Of course, that’s not going to happen overnight. And I need to prepare myself for that. I think I’ve been guilty of having unrealistic expectations. I expect to see a 5 pound drop every week. When that doesn’t happen, I get depressed, then just give up and go back to my unhealthy habits. I have to keep myself from doing this!

I made it to the Y both Tuesday and yesterday. 30 minutes on a treadmill plus 5 minutes cool down each day. And damn, did I feel how out of shape I am! In the past, a 30 minute workout would’ve been a good workout, something that got my heart pumping and a bit of sweat going, but nothing too strenuous. These past couple of days, though, I barely made it through the 30 mintues. When I finished, I could barely walk out to my car! Instead of taking me a few minutes to recover, it took an hour or two. I was completely wiped out by these workouts!

On the plus side, my workout on Wednesday was a tiny bit less strenuous than my workout on Tuesday. Hopefully, I’ll get to the point where I don’t immediately collapse after I finish just a 30 minute workout!


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