Year-end weigh in: Happy New Year!
Current weight: 290.5
Difference from last entry: -2
Difference from 2007 starting weight (335.5): -45
I just realized that this is my last weigh-in for 2007! The year has come to a close much quicker than I expected. I constantly lose track of time and dates, the days and months go by much faster every year now, and I can never seem to keep up. So realizing that this is the last weigh-in for 2007 really did surprise the heck out of me. Fortunately, I finished on a positive note, to go along with a year of positive notes. It seems apropos to finish the year out with a loss!
So my year finishes down 45 pounds from the start. I have to admit, I am pretty damned proud of myself. I think I’ve earned the right to pat myself on the back. It was a hard struggle. Sometimes it seemed quite easy, but looking back on everything, I actually did do a lot of hard work. It was hard to make myself stay within a range of foods, and a range of portion sizes. As anyone who has read this journal for the past couple of years knows, portions and sweet snacks have always been my downfalls. Giving those up – or at least cutting back on them – was a major challenge for me. I fought against it, I struggled and lost every now and then. But overall, I overcame! I still have to watch myself, because those old habits are easy to fall back in to.
But I haven’t given up. I will never forget. 2007 was my affirmation year, my proof to myself that I can control my weight. That I don’t have to be so god damned fat. That I don’t have to be a slave to my gluttony. I control what I do. I can be strong. I can get past my inherent laziness. 2007 was the year I regained my confidence, 2007 was the year that I turned everything around again.
It’s not just my weight loss that I have to celebrate, either. There are a lot of other benefits from what I have done this year. I am down three pants sizes, from a 54 to a 50 (and am really close to being able to wear 48s). I am down from 3X shirts to 2X. I no longer am completely winded when I walk up a flight of stairs. I was able to fend off the start of diabetes. I can fit in spaces that I used to have to avoid. I can sit in a booth at a restaurant. Other people can see the difference in my appearance. I can see the difference in my appearance! And there are more… initimate… benefits, too.
So, to sum it up: 2007 has been an interesting year. It’s been both wonderful and tough emotionally. But all in all, I wouldn’t trade 2007 in for anything.
Happy New Year, everyone! Here’s looking forward to a wonderful 2008!
I am trying to re-define what my anchor means to me. The TARDIS key has served me well, lo these many years. But I have had it long enough that it is kinda losing its symbolism. It is sort of the same thing that happened with my wedding ring. I love my wedding ring, and it means the world to me. But I am so used to having it with me that I don’t notice it. Which means that it doesn’t serve as the reminder that it should. An anchor should be something that you notice, that kinda pokes itself into you and says, “hey dummy! Remember your promise to yourself!” If something is easily ignored, then it doesn’t make a good anchor.
