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Extended holiday – doing myself no favors

This probably goes without saying, but I haven’t been doing very well lately. The exact opposite, actually. I’ve completely regressed to my old habits. And I can’t believe that I’ve let myself do this again!

It all started with the holidays. As I stated in my last real entry, I was shocked that I hadn’t gained more weight over the holiday season. I foolishly thought that meant that I had survived the holidays. Instead, what it did was gave me an excuse to use to continue eating poorly and not exercising.

I haven’t stepped on a scale in a long, long time. Because I know that the results cannot be good. I’ve been over-eating, mainly with very sweet, high-calorie foods. I’ve been avoiding exercise like the plague: since November, I’ve maybe exercised for 30 minutes or more 5 times. That definitely isn’t good. If I had to guess, I’d say that I’m back up to 330.

But, also following along with my patterns, I am starting to reign things in. And so I’m back here, confessing my transgressions, and making vows to be better in the future. And, also in my pattern, there was a stimulus to make me want to turn things around.

This time, it was at work. We were having a team meeting in the new conference room. From where I was sitting, I could see a reflection of myself in a window. And through the whole team meeting, I kept glancing at myself and thinking, my god, I’m disgusting. I look like a hippo. That’s when I made the decision to get back in the swing of losing weight.

So here I am, once again! I hope everyone else is having a better time of it than me.