January 16, 2005 – Food addiction

Weight: 332
Difference from last entry: +5

I am up from November, but that isn’t surprising. Holiday weight and very poor food choices are to blame for that. My bigger problem is that I have very little will power right now. The little voice in my head that says, “have a piece of cake. Get some ice cream! oooo, milkshake” is being unchallenged right now. When I hear that voice, I give in without a thought. Which is not good. It’s not good at all.

I reckon that this is much what it’s like to be an alcoholic or drug addict. The desire to eat something bad feels like much more than a desire. It feels like a need. That idea keeps nagging at me, over and over, until I give in. I didn’t used to give in. I used to be able to resist long enough for the desire to go away. I’ve been too lazy to resist. Too lazy to put up a fight. This is what I must work on. This is what I must do this year.

I am going to try to start a new round of eDiets. I’ve printed out this week’s meal plan. I’ll post the results here in a week or two.

Related posts:

1. January 14, 2003
2. January 21, 2004
3. January 15, 2004
4. Busy, busy week