29 May

May 29, 2002

Weight: 323
Difference from last entry: +4

Hello again, everyone. Sorry that I was gone for a week there. I was actually taking a week off from pretty much everything. At the time, I didn’t know exactly why I was doing so. I have figured it out, though, and have moved on.

And wow, was that cryptic or what? Let me try to be a little less confusing. Basically, I had some things going on in my personal life that were getting me down. I wasn’t allowing myself to realize, however, that I was down, or what the cause was. I started to get depressed, though, and that make me not care about trying to control my weight. So I took a week off. A week off from exercising, from watching what I eat, from talking to people (aside from my wife, of course).

Thanks to my wife, I was able to sit down and figure out just what the heck was going on. I’ve pulled myself out of my depression, and that has helped me to try to get back on track. Fortunately, it was only 4 pounds that I gained. It could’ve been much worse.

This whole situation lends itself nicely to a journal entry. This demonstrates just how much power our emotions have over our weight. If we are depressed (even if we are trying to hide from ourselves), we are going to seek out comfort from somwhere. And those of us with weight problems tend to seek comfort from food.

It’s very important that one has a support system, people one can talk to when they are going through tough times emotionally. Thank goodness, I have Erin. Love ya Sweetheart; thanks again!

– Miguelito

13 May

May 13, 2002

Weight: 319
Difference from last entry: -1

I am of two minds on the subject of what my weight is doing. My first inclination is to think, “Why is my weight going down so slowly?” I am regularly exercising now (30 minutes a day, Monday – Friday). Exercise has always been my downfall. Now that I am actually exercising, I should be losing weight quickly. Right?

Obviously, that isn’t right. The problem is my eating. Still. And, if you have read my journal for any length of time, you know where my problems eating are. The problems aren’t with the meals I eat. Those are fine. I can do with lowering my portion size a bit more, but for the most part, meals are not my problems. It is snacking that is getting to me, that is keeping me from losing weight. Or, at least, losing weight a little faster than I am.

I mentioned that I have settled on a meal plan. The basics of the meal plan are:

Breakfast:
I tend to eat breakfast around 7:00-7:30. A bowl of cereal is my favorite food for this meal, though I’ll substitute two slices of toast with peanut butter.

Brunch:
I eat this meal somewhere between 10:00am-11:00am. This really isn’t a meal; it’s a glorified snack. I’ll have a bagel or toast, along with a glass of juice.

Lunch:
I eat lunch every day somewhere between 12:30pm – 1:30pm. I really need to lower my portion size here. I tend to eat too much for lunch, and feel rather bloated through the rest of the day. A single sandwich, a bowl of soup, a small portion of pasta… these would all be fine for this meal.

Linner:
I tend to eat this right around 4:30pm. This is a very light meal, really just a bite to get me by to dinner. An ounce or two of cheese, some beef jerky, or a cup of soup are my favorite foods to eat here.

Dinner:
We tend to eat dinner between 7:00pm-8:00pm. I am usually feeling quite content here, and can get by with a very small meal. I haven’t been doing this, however, and instead have been eating a full meal with my wife. I need to allow myself to eat a small portion, choosing to enjoy the company instead of continuing to put food in my mouth. The same foods that work for lunch work well for dinner.

That’s the basics of my meal plan. For the most part, these work. My problem, though, is that I still find ways to eat something I shouldn’t between these meals. My weakest times are between breakfast and brunch, and between lunch and linner. And what I sneak in are sweets. Empty calories that really don’t do me any good at all. I eat the sweets because I am used to it. I crave sweets not because my body needs sugar, but because my sweet tooth wants some satisfying. It is alternately amusing and annoying.

My goal for this next week will be to try to reduce the amount of snacks I have. Eventually, I will try to cut most sweets out of my diet. But for now, I am just going to concentrate on trying to reduce the amount that I eat. Assuming I stay on track with my exercising (and I see no reason why I wouldn’t), reducing the amount of sweets that I eat should have an immediate positive effect on my weight.

I hate ending these journal entries on a down note. I have a positive thought to leve you on this week: My jeans are fitting a tiny bit looser this week. Nothing to jump up and down about, true, but they are definitely not as tight as they were just a week ago. I am, once again, seeing progress in other areas besides the scale.

That is truly a Good Thing!

– Miguelito

03 May

Weight: 320
Different from last entry: -1

This has been a really interesting week. I am trying to get myself used to a new routine, and am finding it a little bit more difficult than I thought I would. I often forget just how much a creature of habit I am!

Last week, I was able to work out for 30 minutes every day for lunch. This week, I decided to try going to work an hour early and working out for 30 minutes before work. In theory, it was a good idea. In practice, it was hard to do. First of all, it was hard for me to actually get to work an hour early. I ended up getting to work at 8:15am every morning. I had to adjust my workout time down accordingly, and ended up with a 25-minute workout each day. It was an amusing dose of disorganization.

In the end, though, I actually enjoyed working out in the morning. I am still trying to figure out my body; there are things it does that I don’t understand. For example, after a morning workout, I get a nice little boost of energy that helps me get through the day. When I work out at lunch, though, the opposite happens. After the workout, I am drained, and barely have enough energy to get through the rest of the day. I think this is all pretty strange.

I think I am going to try to continue working out in the morning. It means I have to be more disciplined; I have to get myself to get out of our front door by 7:40 in the morning. That’ll be the real tough part.

I’m still not eating all that well. I am starting to make better choices about what I eat (especially for lunch), but I am still not where I need to be. I think I really need to figure out a structured diet for myself. It should be easy, now that I know when my body likes to eat. I just need to actually work on this.

I hope your week has been good!

– Miguelito