Difference from last entry: -2.4 (!!!)
I DID IT! Wow! I am pretty pumped, in case you couldn’t tell. I was able to get myself back down beneath that 290 pound mark. Thank Tao! I feel much, much better than I did at this time last week. A lot of that negative thinking that I sunk into last week has gone away. Now, I am left with a couple of handfuls of motivation. Time for me to put them to use!
As I mentioned yesterday, I am having mixed results at actually doing the things I need to do to lose weight. I have started exercising (walking) regularly; I just got back from a 20 minute walk, for example. But I am still not doing some things correctly. (For example, I had two bowls of cereal last night, even though I had used up all of my points for the day).
Weight management is a balancing act. I have never been more sure of that than I am right now. It’s a series of choices and compromises one must make with ones’ self. If one makes the right choices and compromises, then one will be able to control their weight. It’s that easy; it is not that easy.
Last night was a great example of a compromise. I really wanted to walk over to Phar Mor (which is a three minute walk from my apartment) and get a Hostess cherry pie. For some reason, it sounded delightful. Yet I know just how bad those things are for a person. (We are talking hamburger range for calories and fat.) I was trying to argue with myself, but I knew this was one of those situations where I wasn’t going to get out of eating SOMETHING. So I decided that, if I were going to overeat, I’d do it with something healthy. (Or, at least, healthier.) So I had a bowl of cereal (raisin bran, very high in fiber, low in calories and fat).
The key to this whole game is the compromise, and the choice. Making the choice to not overeat, making the choice to exercise, is what I am striving towards. For the current time, compromising with my 30 years of learned behavior by eating healthy alternatives when I absolutely have to eat, or exercising for at least a short amount of time when I don’t want to exercise, is what I can do to gain control over my weight.